Singe

So I had a cat that was 18 years old

he died yesterday

I've written about a couple of pets I've lost on this site before

but this one is different

I've had Singe since I was 18

I'm 37 now

by all means, he was like my son

Singe lived a good life

he didn't deserve to die the way he did

he was killed by two stray dogs

he loved to sleep outside in the front under our cars

because he was so old he had lost his hearing

and he would go into a deep sleep

we would drive up and he wouldn't even hear the car

we'd walk up on him and startle him

and he'd jump up and be a bit disorented

I know these dogs were going around the yard sniffing

and they must have came across him sleeping in a little ball

he didn't hear them and was in a deep sleep

they prob startled him awake and he might have ran

I saw the dogs still in the yard as I was leaving for work

these were two huge dogs

Singe didn't stand a chance

and according to books, agewise he was more like 80 years old

and he moved like it too

very slow

the neighbors saw the whole thing

they said he was tossed around like a rag doll

I can only hope that it was quick

they prob crushed his neck, if not broke it because he wasn't mangled or ripped apart

I found him when I was leaving for work

I saw two huge dogs in the lawn

I called out to my mom about the dogs

I looked for him and when I didn;t see him under any of the cars I figured he was inside or in the backyard safe

as I drove off I saw him in the yard

his front half was twisted up and his lower half was laying sideways

so I knew exactly what happened

I got off the truck and got up close hoping he was dead and not lying there suffering

then I had to go tell my mom who loved this cat as much as I did

but first I needed to call work to tell them I was going to be late

I'll never forget this, I couldn't dial the phone because I was shaking

I was in shock

I have to admit, that image of him in the yard has been burned into my brain

I kept seeing it at work all day

but I have to try and get that out and replace it with all of the good memories he gave me

like this one,

because he was deaf I had to figure a way to not scare him

which was very easy to do

so whenever I would approach him as he was looking away

I would use the flashlight on my phone to signal him on the ground with the light

he would see it and turn around and run to me

if it was during the day, I would use my shadow in the same way

a month ago he was outside during a particuarly cold night

then it started to rain

so I didn't want him getting sick so I tried to look for him

calling out to him was not going to work

so I flipped the porch light off and on

it worked

Singe knew exactly what I was trying to do and he came running in

he was loved and lived a very pampered life

I have to remember that

and to take it as close to the start as I can

here is the song he was named after,

with a slight variation of the spelling

so this is how I say goodbye to Signe

with the start